A NIGHT AT THE ROXBURY

what is love? baby don't hurt me. 

 

my best friend (lynnie bop) made me watch this with her and i couldn't be happier. its so so funny and it ends so perfectly. the soundtrack is also amazing. love love loved it. Doug is me and i am him. 

bravery is overrated

Have you ever been standing on the edge of something that scares you and backed out? Maybe its a high dive or a rope swing. All your friends are down below in the water, begging you to jump. Your brain flashes with all the things that could go wrong. You back out, climb back down the ladder to their disappointed faces. Maybe heights don't scare you, but calling your dentist to set an appointment does. The thought of saying hello to the stranger on the other line terrifies you. We all have fears, some big some small, that can sometimes hold us back from personal growth. 

For a lot of my life, things like this held me back. Walking into a crowded room alone, going to the gym while it's busy, making a phone call to order food. Oftentimes, if it was something I was scared to do alone, I'd make someone do it with me or for me. In the past year, I have realized that I wasn't avoiding pain or embarrassment, I was avoiding possibility. Every time I backed out of something, I was trading a moment of discomfort for missing out on something good. So I made a sort of rule for myself. I'd rather live with the embarrassment or pain than with the regret of not doing something that could be good for me. Sure, I'd done most of these things before when I had no choice, but I was a nervous wreck the whole time because I let my fear control me.

I also realized that I'm getting older. These things have to be done, and someone won't always be there to help me do them. In my adulthood, I can't always have someone there for me to do the "hard" things. I've also realized it's more embarrassing to back out of something simple than to do it nervous. Seeing the disappointment on your friends faces as you climb down that ladder is worse than the drop in your stomach as you jump. I still get nervous, but I do it anyway. This choice has been one of the biggest reasons I've grown as a person. While I'm not fearless, I've seen so much progress since I started doing it scared.

My point is: bravery is overrated. It makes you wait until you feel ready, a time that may never come. Doing it scared is the much more effective option many don't realize they have. Discomfort passes, but the experience stays. 

What I'm listening to right now!

 Music is one of my favorite things in the world. I can't go a day without listening to it, so I thought I'd make a post about what's on repeat for me right now.

Top Songs

Hoodie- Hey Violet

I love this song so so much. The bridge is for sure my favorite part, but I love how confessional the whole song is. Loving and missing someone so much that you hold on to the last pieces of them in your life, for example a hoodie. I love songs with deep or meaningful lyrics but happy beats so this is definitely a favorite of mine. 

Sex- The 1975

"Does he take care of you? Or could I easily fill his shoes?" Are you kidding me? Another deeply confessional and shameless song about wanting someone who cannot be yours. A modern day "Jessie's Girl"- by Rick Springfield if you will. I love the 1975 and this is for sure a top song of theirs for me. 

X's & O's- Malcolm Todd

Malcolm Todd has been on repeat for me a lot recently, specifically his new album. This is my favorite song from "Do That Again" right now. I love the chorus and I love the voicemail towards the end. This song just scratches a certain itch for me. 

I Wish You Would- Taylor Swift

I love Taylor Swift so much, so she is almost always on for me, but every so often one song will stick out. Right now it is "I Wish You Would," I love everything about this song, it is another that just scratches an itch for me. 1989 is also one of my favorite albums from her and very special to me because I went to the 1989 tour when I was little. 

Out of Touch- Daryl Hall & John Oates

I love older music and Hall & Oates are a favorite of mine. I've listened to this song so much lately, it's just so good to me. The chorus is for sure my favorite part. I love the emotion in their voices and the lyrics, and of course that classic 80's synth. Just such a great song and a favorite of mine.